Deborah Cole

Letting Go Deborah Cole

What might move a focused, "git 'er done" person of a certain age to chuck it all for a flighty, creative lifestyle? What impetus would cause this same predictable woman to decide to change her ways? Could this be the time in life when there should be a family intervention, car keys taken away, and financial responsibilities removed? You know. One of THOSE situations? It was a possibility. That newly irrational, formerly logical woman was me and is me. I am a person who is in transition, simply in the process of becoming something new and different, a metamorphosis of sorts. Or at least that is how I have justified it to myself.

Everything in my life....the good, the bad and the very messy (and there has been plenty of that) has led me to this moment. Every person, every incident, every trauma that caused pain, chronic anxiety or even incredible joy are simply threads of a life tapestry which have woven themselves into a current pattern that is so amazing that words cannot express nor a container begin to hold the happiness which is now mine. As Skin Horse shares, this becoming takes a long time and doesn't happen all at once. And oh yes, the outcomes are possibly quite spectacular beyond one's wildest dreams. But there are speed bumps and roadblocks along the way which are all there for a purpose. From these bumps come bruises which are painful but healing. From the roadblocks come stall outs which may be frustrating but yield results creating some amazing life changes.