Losing My Reflection

Deep in the night of June 4th, 2007, on the desert sands of California, Nick Smosna's identical twin brother, Jason, took his own life. Looking back first on the unique experience of finding themselves growing up both as individuals but simultaneously as two halves of a whole, Nick weaves a picture of the complicated but powerful connection of identical twins. The subtle decisions and twists of fate that lead to Jason's death have life altering consequences for his entire family. Taking you through the utter devastation following the suicide, Nick eloquently and profoundly details both his grief as well as his eventual redemption. The night of June 4th marked the beginning of Nick's journey through the deepest valleys of depression to eventually the most transforming moments of love. A perfect book for those affected by suicide, loss of a loved one, or struggling with grief/depression, Nick gives a poignant case for the beauty of life that can follow even the most traumatic loss.