All I Should Not Tell

In All I Should Not Tell, Conner Grayson, fourteen, wants nothing more than to see, Cudge, his intensely abusive step-father, destroyed. He considers it a blessing for himself and his younger, too-innocent, brother, Sammy, when the man disappears, though he's convinced that his mother has done something unspeakable to her husband. With Cudge gone, there's no threat of exposing Conner's deepest secret, his love for Mark, another boy in Orgull, a fictional river town outside of Louisville. But almost immediately, Mark disappears as well. Flash forward two decades. Conner remains tortured about his past, including the apparent suicides of his biological father and his brother. But, he has found a certain level of happiness with the family he's built with his wife, Lamb, as well as his boyfriend, James. It's complicated. When Cudge's octogenarian father shows up from California to investigate Cudge's long ago disappearance, Conner spirals into a series of unwise decisions culminating in discoveries about his past that may destroy his current family. It might be there's only one person who can pull him from the wreckage.